The Unicorn Blues

2003-08-14T00:11:00.000-04:00

I'm in a bit of a ficcing slump again. Well, I guess the term 'still' would be more accurate. Ah, the hell with it anyways.

I think I'll try to work more on the HaruxHana fic this week. I have no ideas where to go with it, though. *kicks fic*

Michelle has posted more of The Wasteland on her site. I'm in heaven. If you've never read her CCS fics, I highly suggest them. And not only is she a great writer, but she's hella nice too. *much wub*

Sakura, thanks for the comments! *hugs* I'm pretty happy with this bit of fic and I'm glad you liked it. Now, if only I could finish the darn thing... ^^;;;

2003-07-18T00:36:00.000-04:00

*dusts blog off*

After about a billion months I've finally managed to put together chapter one of the Hana-chan/Hatsuharu ficcie. Gah. I can't believe it took me so long to write this teeny little bit of writing...what the hell is wrong with me? Oh, I know, I'm lazy. Yeah, that's it. XD

Anywho, here it is.

I need a title. Any suggestions would be highly appreciated.

2003-06-18T11:24:00.000-04:00

An interesting article in the Washington Post about fan fiction that was brought to my attention.

Hey, whadda ya know? The creators of SugarQuill are from good ole Baltimore. Yeah. Baltimore rocks.

2003-06-16T23:24:00.000-04:00

Well, nothing new but I thought I should at least do a progress update.

Been working on the revision of FHR. I'm finished with the prologue and almost finished chapter one. I just have to flesh it out a little but I know what I want to write so it shouldn't take me long. I really need to come up with a new title for this fic. But, I'm too tired to think right now so I'll think of one later. (Really it's only taken me this long to revise such a little bit because I haven't been feeling this fic at all lately. I really need inspiration to write.) I was reading over the fic and I realized there are some parts that I really like. Maybe I won't have to do as much revising as I thought. Maybe I just have to add some things to flesh out characters and such. Hmmm. Too tired...can't think...

Been fooling with the Touya/Tomoyo as well. Not much progress but I have a few ideas for it.

Also been fooling with the Haru/Hana-chan. I'm almost finished the first chapter. There are a couple things I need to work out and then I'll post it.

Hopefully this burst of inspiration will last for awhile.

2003-05-04T01:06:00.000-04:00

Well, I finished the Kyoru. Here's the link. Don't know if I'm happy with it or not. Course, it was hard to write a lemon for them that early on in the series, there's just so much that happens later...ah well. I think I did an ok job of keeping them in character at least. Gah. I value opinions...comments would be muchly muchly appreciated. ^_^

Am toying with the idea of writing a Yukiru now, just to keep the balance. I musn't let Kyo have all the fun. It wouldn't be fair. XD

Of course, I have to finished the Haru/Hana-chan fic first. Weeee.

2003-05-04T00:45:00.000-04:00

Wee. A quiz. Posted the results here cuz it won't let me at the other blog without messing up the layout.

Which HP Kid Are You?

After you take the test check out the fanart. Tis worth it. Wee.

2003-04-29T23:34:00.000-04:00

A rather long snippet of the Kyoru. It's for a contest called 'Kyo and Tohru's Wicked Delightful Hot Spring Trip Lemon Contest'. Er...so...yesh this will become a lemon. I just haven't gotten to that part yet. *blushes and runs away*

Tohru tiptoed carefully towards the door sliding it open and letting a cool breeze come into the room. Her brow furrowed as she shot a worried glance in Momiji’s direction; his gentle snores giving away his position in the darkness. She didn’t want to disturb the younger boy, but she was too restless to sleep. She found herself stepping outside and sliding the door closed with a soft swish. She glanced up almost automatically. It was an exceptionally clear night and the moon was bright, but not so full as to obscure the view of the stars in the darkened sky.

She walked around the outside of the building, enjoying the feel of the breeze against her skin. The wood planks of the walkway were cool against the bottoms of her bare feet. She was more than a bit surprised to find the porch already occupied. Kyo glance up at her from his seat on the edge of the walkway. She took up the space next to him, carefully tucking her robe around her as she sat down.

“Kyo-kun. It’s late, what are you doing up?” Her soft voice sounded loud in the still of the night.

“That damn mouse…as if I could sleep with him around.” He looked at her briefly before glancing away again with a slightly guarded expression. “Why aren’t you asleep?”

She giggled at the way he managed to sound concerned and irritated at the same time. “Momiji-kun was snoring a little bit and it was keeping me awake. He looked so cute though that I didn’t want to bother him. He must have tired himself out today because he’s sleeping really well.”

Kyo felt a surge of jealousy at the affectionate tone of Tohru’s voice as she was speaking of his younger cousin. “Idiot! You shouldn’t be sharing a room with that brat anyway!” he hissed at her.

“Ah…I’m sorry. I didn’t think anything was wrong with it. I only wanted everyone to have a good time. I’m sorry,” she apologized.

“Tohru…I didn’t mean…well, I did mean it but…” He let out an impatient sigh. “All I’m saying is that you shouldn’t always be so worried about everyone else. You let yourself get taken advantage of because you’re too nice to people.”

“Perhaps that’s so,” she allowed. “But mother always said that I should be myself. It would feel wrong to act any other way.”

Kyo grunted in response. He was somewhat mollified by her explanation; Tohru would be Tohru, after all. He still didn’t like that she was so trusting, so naïve. But if she weren’t those things, she wouldn’t be Tohru, would she?

They sat in companionable silence for several minutes, each completely at ease in the other’s presence. Tohru shivered slightly and scooted closer to Kyo’s side. She stopped herself before she got too close, though. She was ever conscious of his nearness and what could happen were she to move too near to him in just the wrong way. She felt her face heat when she realized how much she enjoyed being so close to him and how much closer she wished she could be. To be held by Kyo…but that was impossible.

He gave her a sideways look from beneath his long bangs. Tohru fought the urge to brush them away. She gave him a sly smile and told him he needed a haircut but he said nothing. His gaze then wandered over to her hair, where the ribbon Yuki had given her earlier that night was still tied.

“I didn’t give you anything.”

“No, that’s not true! Kyo-kun has given me so very much.”

His face reddened suspiciously as he looked away from her. “I have?” he questioned softly.

“Of course! Kyo-kun is a very generous person. He even agreed to come on this trip because of me! But, besides that, Kyo-kun has let me get to know him better, which is most important to me. And…ano…he lets me cry when I want to, even though it bothers him.”

He snorted. “I’m the one that’s usually making you feel bad in the first place,” he mumbled in an effort to hide his astonishment. Did she really think so highly of him? Well, she was entirely too trusting, he told himself.

“But, it’s Kyo-kun’s heartfelt apologies that make it alright,” she insisted.

He looked at her then, his expression unreadable. “You…you really believe that, don’t you?”

She nodded emphatically causing loose strands of hair to fly around her face in a haphazard fashion. He reached up to tuck the stray strands back behind her ear. She shivered at his touch. Tohru caught his gaze once again wandering to the pretty yellow ribbon.

It was just like that damn mouse to give her something that was so utterly perfect for her. With a slight frown, he pulled the ribbon slowly from her hair and placed it in her hands. When she gave him a curious look he said, “I don’t want you to wear it when I kiss you.”

Her eyes widened with surprise, and her heart gave a lurch, but for an entirely different reason. “When you k-kiss me?”

He nodded. His eyes became heavy lidded giving him a lazy appearance, belying the turmoil he was feeling inside. What would happen if she refused? What would happen if she didn’t? Whatever happened, things between them were changed now; they couldn’t go back to the way they were before.

“It’s not much, as far as presents go…” he murmured.

Kyo reached up with both hands to gently cup her face and tip it up towards him. His hands then moved to grip the hair on either side of her face; it was so soft, like strands of silk. Carefully he pulled her face ever closer towards his own.

2003-04-26T23:57:00.000-04:00

Geez, Louise.

I took a short break from Hana-chan to work on the Kyoru...and omg. It's taking me FOREVER to write the H/H fic...so slow...gah, but the Kyoru...I just started it and I already have more than a page written. *sigh* Go figure.

Ah well.

I don't think anything will be finished anytime this weekend though...well, perhaps Sunday night...maybe. If rl doesn't intrude too much. Darn work.

2003-04-26T12:43:00.000-04:00

Wee, I think I'm almost finished chapter one of the Haru/Hana-chan fic. I decided to make it a multipart fic because I don't think it could be pulled off in a one shot, at least not the way I'm writing it. Not sure how many parts it will be...two at least, probably no more than three. I made some progress this afternoon. Unfortunately, I have to go to work now. Bleh. I have plans to work on it when I get home though. *nod nod* Must finish. Must finish. Must finish!

Belinda, thanks for the encouragement. *hugs* I might write the Kyoru, just to take a break from Hana-chan. Tohru is easy to write for me because she's so incredibly emotional. Hehe. Besides, I geuss I shouldn't let fic ideas go to waste...I get so few of them. lol

2003-04-22T20:15:00.000-04:00

Thanks Mee-imouto, Sakura, and Belinda for the comments on the snippets. I wub you guys. ^_^

The Haru/Hana-chan fic is coming along more slowly than I had hoped. I really think it's Hana-chan's fault. She's hard for me to write. I'm used to dealing with more emotional female characters. Not to say that Hana-chan is some emotionless robot, it's just that she lets very little show. I will finish this story though, darnit. *is determined*

2003-04-15T00:34:00.000-04:00

Sophie! Wee. I'm so happy when I get visitors! <<---is a major nerd. XD The reason for the Haru/Hana-chan fic was because a) Mona said there needed to be more Hana-chan fic, and b) Haru/Hana-chan came up as a sorta odd pairing that could either work really well or not at all. I personally view thier characters as very much alike. At least in respect to Yuki and Tohru. Haru is to Yuki as Hana-chan is to Tohru. Sorta. They are both uber protective of thier peeps. *nod nod* And they both sorta have this thing where they frighten other people away (Haru when he's in Black mode and Hana-chan when she starts the sparks a flyin'.) Any time else they both are kinda laid back. So, I came to the conclusion they'd either mesh well together, or they'd be so alike that thier relationship would be boring and go no where. To prove the latter wrong I am writing fic. XD

Speaking of which...I've been working on the Haru/Hana-chan fic and here are snippets as proof. See? I've been kinda sorta productivish. Kinda sorta. Maybe.

*snippet one*

She watched them leave, her eyes following them as they made their way down street.

A voice broke through echoing her thoughts.

“They look good together.”

“I think so as well, Sohma Hatsuharu.” She paused for a moment before continuing. “But, I worry about Tohru. If he were to cause her pain…well, then…” She turned her gaze in the direction that Yuki and Tohru had disappeared, her eyes reflecting her stormy thoughts. “There is something different about you Sohma’s. Whatever your secret is, Tohru knows. She’s not very good at hiding things.”

“Everyone has secrets, even you, denpa girl.”

She acknowledged his statement by turning towards him slowly, focusing those large eyes on him. She cocked her head to one side causing her long black braid fall gracefully over one shoulder.

“Are you afraid of it?”

He held her gaze, unwavering. “No.”

*snippet two*

He felt something dance over his flesh raising the little hairs on his arms and giving him goose bumps. Breaking the kiss, he stepped away from her to look into her eyes but they were closed, the long charcoal lashes dark against her pale complexion. She shuddered then and tried to drift closer to him but he held her firmly by the shoulders preventing contact between their bodies.

“Hanajima…”

A small sound escaped her then; somewhere between a sigh and a moan it came out almost as a whimper. He gave her a little shake when her eyes remained closed. They opened dazedly and she stared ahead, her gaze unfocused.

“Hanajima.” His voice was louder now, more sharp. “What did you do just then?”

“Nothing. I’ve never been kissed before. I didn’t know…”

“You didn’t know what?” His tone was becoming angrier with each word he spoke. He had never felt anything like it; that kiss. Part of him was convinced that she had used the opportunity to slip into his mind and find out his secrets. Another part of him argued whether it was even possible for her to do that. Whatever it was, something had definitely occurred between the two of them during that kiss.

Her eyes snapped up to meet his own, the gaze she sent him now was clear as day. “I didn’t know that would happen.”

He took a deep breath and tried to calm himself; it wouldn’t do for him to turn Black right now. “What exactly happened?”

She began to speak then, but the words flowing from those delicate lips made absolutely no sense to him. He thought he’d caught something about…water? He held out a hand, interrupting her.

“Maybe you could try explaining it so that I could actually understand?”

She let out an almost imperceptible sigh. “I lost control of the denpa. I’m sorry. It won’t happen again.”

They looked at each other for a minute before he turned away. He almost didn’t catch her words then, they were spoken so softly. “It won’t happen again because we aren’t going to do this anymore, are we? It’s alright. I understand. Have no fear Sohma Hatsuharu, you’ll remain as you are to me; a mystery.”
She left the room then. He didn’t turn around until he heard the last of her footsteps fade away into nothingness.

*end snippets*

Dammit. Why does everything I write have to head towards angst? What the hell is up with that?

*sigh*

Oh well. At least I'm writing. ^_^

2003-04-03T21:58:00.000-05:00

I live.

Work has pretty much fried my brain, but I hope to get to ficcing soon.

Thanks, Belle, for the fic rec. It's a wonderful fic and it has helped fuel the Touya/Tomoyo goodness. Perhaps I'll work on that tomorrow.

After I work on the Hatsuharu/Hana-chan fic. *gives a determined nod* I will finish it. I will. I think I can. I think I can. I think I can, dammit.

2003-03-13T22:42:00.000-05:00

A snippet of the Hatsuharu/Hana-chan fic. Yesh, you heard that right. They said it couldn't be done...(actually no one really said that. Ha Ha Ha! I am a constant source of amusement for myself. ^^;;;)

snip

He had been spacing out again. He felt someone watching him and he glanced up only to find Hanajima scrutinizing him with her dark eyes. For a second he thought he saw something flicker in their luminous depths, but then it was gone; her expression once more becoming blank and unreadable.

“You have something heavy on your mind,” she intoned matter-of-factly. “Do not trouble yourself over it; things will work out in the end.”

He blinked. “Denpa? Did you use it on me?”

She shook her head slightly. “No. I don’t have to use denpa to see that something is on your mind. You are here but it is not; it’s been wandering somewhere else.”

“Haha! Not only are you directionally impaired, but you seem to be losing your mind too,” Kyou snickered.

end snip

I don't know if I'm gonna keep that last line in or not. I thought it was kind of funny but....ah. I'll figure it out later. I'll work on it more tomorrow. Yay. Hana-chan. *sparkle* Yay. Haru. *drool* XD

2003-03-12T23:58:00.000-05:00

First off: Thanks to meemee, Sakura, and Belle for the comments on the toriru. *hugs* I really was worried about it not being any good. Perhaps I worry too much. ^^;;;

Yay, I'm officially finished 'Awakenings'. Hurrah for me. I might do an epilogue, but if I do it will be short and sweet. *nod nod* And not real soon. Unless inspiration rears it's head.

Speaking of inspiration...I've come up with an idea for Mona's Hana-chan no romansu fic. *insert evil grin here* Muahahahahaha! *ahem* Yesh, so that's what I'll be working on next.

Yay for inspiration!

2003-03-10T14:26:00.000-05:00

Currently working on finishing 'Awakenings'. It's about 80% done. Go me. I hope to have it finished and posted at ff.net by tonight.

Progress of other fics in the works:

Untitled Touya/Tomoyo--about 10% done.
Untitled Shi-chan fic for eve--it's all in my head. Just have to actully write the darn thing. Or, actually, since it's such a short spoof type thing I may just do it in the form of a comic. That might be better. ^^;;
Untitled Hana-chan fic for mona--still contemplating. But I'm determined. Yesh I am.
Total revision of 'FHR'--about 15% done.

*looks at all the ficcing she has to do*

^^;;;;

2003-02-27T00:20:00.000-05:00

I finished the toriru with ten minutes to spare before the deadline ended at midnight. Phew. Of course, I was in such a hurry to write it that I forgot to come up with a title. ^^;;;

Oh, and I'm not quite sure how it turned out since I was really rushing to get it finished on time. Plus, I started getting swirly eyed from looking at the monitor so right now I don't really feel like going back and looking for things that I need to fix. I'll do that later.

Oro? XD

Now that the toriru is done, I'll be working on finishing the last chapter of 'Awakenings' and also that spoof furuba ficlet. Yay.

2003-02-20T21:41:00.000-05:00

Ah, everything esca is on hold until I eek out two tiny furuba fics (see...I knew I would end up ficcing furuba one of these days).

The first, a spoof fic for eve-kun since she gave me such funny bunnies. Will be short and extremely silly....and will feature hentai!shigure. Yay.

The second fic is for mona's valentine's day fic event on the flbml that ends the 26th...yeah, so I have to get my butt in gear. Toriru. Why? Because mona says there isn't enough. ^_~

2003-02-13T00:38:00.000-05:00

Sorry, my comments box is eating your comments. *kicks haloscan* *grumbles* Maybe that'll fix it. It always works for the copier at work. *grin*

*is excited*

You know, I've been waiting and waiting and waiting for this to be updated...and now she said she's almost finished writing it and will be posting more soon. *dances* Yeah. I'm a geek. Deal with it.

I've decided. I'm definately going to buckle down and write the TouyaxTomoyo story. I have one last chapter of Awakenings to finish first and then I'm going to dedicate myself to TxT. The idea has been in my head (and bits have ended up on my harddrive) for a long long time. I've been thinking about it a lot lately though, which means I need to work on it. Oh, and Belle, I'm glad that someone else is interested in Touya and Tomoyo, as well. Yay. I'm not alone. ^_^

2003-02-10T18:07:00.000-05:00

AKIRU

What fruity mix fanfiction pairing are you?
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What???

Don't know how I ended up with this. Oh well. *shrugs*

2003-02-09T20:06:00.000-05:00

Been toying around with the idea of actually writing that TouyaxTomoyo fic. Just to give me a break from the monotony of esca.

I haven't been writing as much as I've been reading though. I'm going to plug a story because I feel like it. Of Cat And Boy by Lady of the Ink. Chibi Merle, chibi Van, what more can one ask for?

*dances*

2003-02-01T00:19:00.000-05:00

Posted part six of Awakenings. It was supposed to be the last chapter but dammit....this fic will just not end. Part seven should finish it off. Originally it was only supposed to be a one shot but it just kept growing and growing. ^^;;;

Maybe I can finish it up this weekend. Bleh. Problem with me is that I can only write when I'm in the mood to write. If I'm not feeling it, then anything I write tends to come out feeling rushed. Maybe I should watch esca again for some inspiration. Like I need an excuse to watch esca. XDXD

2003-01-25T22:17:00.000-05:00

Finally finished part five of Awakenings. One more part to go. Wee. I'm not quite satisfied with it, but it will do. *sighs* I'm at that point again where I just want to be done with the story and so I'll try to wrap up things as quickly as I can. This happens when I write multi-part stories....is why I don't like writing them much. ^^;;; Will continue revisions on FHR tomorrow.

On to other things. A topic came up on the Clamp Fan Fiction Mailing List a while ago: What do you listen to when you write?

Interesting question. It depends on the mood I'm in or what kind of story I'm working on. I love music of all kinds but there are certain things I can't listen to if I'm going to try and write. Since I don't have a great attention span anything that has words that I know will distract me and cause me to sing along (not that I call that frog like noise that comes from my throat 'singing'.) And it can't be anything too energetic or I'll find myself getting up and dancing. Yeah, scary, I know. I love the Escaflowne soundtracks, my favorites being the first and the third and also the movie soundtrack (I find myself listening to them especially when working on esca fics). Also, I love listening to movie scores; James Horner and Rachael Portman are lovely. Sometimes I listen to classical music; the Peer Gynt suite by Edvard Greig is one of my favorites. I might play some j-pop because I'm usually not distracted by the lyrics. I like to listen to Matsu Takako because her songs are very light and soothing. So, let's sum up. Basically, anthing that will put me into a trance like state works well for me. ^_^

2003-01-12T21:54:00.000-05:00

Reworking FHR. I've rearranged this bit to be the prologue. I think it works out nicely as a set-up for the rest of the story.

//There was a great earthquake; the world itself seemed to be turning against them. So many of them died that day from the buildings collapsing or in the suffocating ash; some of the smaller ones drowned in the sea as they had tried to flee the burning land. ‘What has become of us?’ They couldn’t understand why this was happening.
A soft feminine voice rose above the chaos outside. ‘We are being punished. Our leader is dead; killed by his greed and thirst for power. We have aspired to be as the gods and now they are taking their revenge on us.’

They gathered in the cave for shelter, these few that had survived, running to get away from the angry sky raining the hot ash and rocks down upon them. They clutched at each other in their fear. ‘What shall we do?’

She was silent for a moment before answering. ‘If the gods grant it, we may create a new world; a place where we can start again.’ She paused, a distant look in her pale blue eyes. ‘But, our punishment is not over. We shall be as outcasts on this new planet, and man shall rule over us as we have tried to rule over them; in this way we can survive.’

‘Never!’ They cried and argued amongst themselves, and for a moment the destruction and devastation outside was forgotten.
She held up her hand for silence and continued in her quiet voice, ‘These are our only options. Flee and become exiles, or stay and die.’

~*~

Two figures looked into the darkened room where the children where imprisoned.

“We created this world, now look at us. There are hardly any pureblood Draconians left on Gaea.” He made a short sound of disgust. “Breeding with those pathetic humans; mixing their inferior blood with ours. This is where it has gotten us,” he told his companion.

The girl beside him winced at the anger in his voice as she surveyed the scene in front of her with growing horror. ‘This is wrong,” she said quietly. “What you are doing is wrong—“ The rest of her words were cut off when she received a sharp slap across the face. She tumbled to the floor with the force of the blow, blackness threatening to close in around her. Blinking several times to try and regain her bearings, she felt a small trickle of blood begin to run from the corner of her mouth. Suddenly she felt hands grasp her upper arms, bruising her tender flesh as she was roughly hauled her to her feet.

“Little fool!” He shook her as if to emphasize his words. “Our people are dying, yet you choose to sympathize with our enemy!”

“I do not see them as such,” she whispered.

He growled in his frustration. “Then you do not see anything.” He dragged her towards the door, unbolting it with one hand as he held her firmly against the wall with the other. When the door opened he all but tossed her into the darkened cell.

“Maybe this will change your thoughts, Mynnira,” he hissed before locking her into the room.

Her eyes strained in the dim light as they focused on his figure walking away from the large viewing window. He hesitated for a brief second, but continued onward without looking back.

She closed her eyes, wincing at the pain. “How could I have been so blind? Lotarrin…”

The room was cold and the children huddled together for warmth; the younger ones drew back from her in fear while the older children eyed her with suspicion. She sat down and leaned back against the wall farthest away from them. She tore a bit of material off of the sleeve of her gown and gingerly wiped the blood from her face, wincing when she brushed against sore flesh that was quickly becoming a bruise. She could already feel some swelling along her left cheek.

Mynnira had been surprised when he hit her; she knew that her brother had a temper but she never would have thought he’d lash out with such violence. For all that they had grown up together; he was a stranger to her. They had been raised in a small draconian settlement deep in the forest covered mountains of Fanelia. There were similar sparsely populated villages hidden throughout Gaea. How Lotarrin had come to have such hatred was beyond her; it wasn’t so very unusual for Draconians to disguise their heritage leave the settlement choosing to live among the humans. Their own great-aunt, their grandmother’s younger sister, had done so long before they had been born. Their grandmother was a prophetess among their people and she had seen her little sister’s future among the humans. Sometimes, like now, Mynnira wished she had inherited her grandmother’s gift; maybe then she would have had some idea what her brother’s plans were.

She felt a light touch on her mind and she looked up, surprised. A little girl approached her. She couldn’t have been more than five summers.

“Don’t cry.”

She reached up and brushed away the moisture on her face, eyes widening in surprise; she hadn’t realized she’d been crying.

“Aren’t you afraid of me?”

The little one shook her head causing lopsided pigtails to bounce back and forth. “You have pretty colors; not like the bad man. His colors are angry.”

Colors? Ah, she thought with sudden understanding, the child was a somewhat of a seer. There were some among her kind that were able to ‘see’ other’s emotions, but the ability was rare. Unfortunately, that gift had not fallen to her either. But, if the child did have some ability, perhaps they could use it combined with her own small powers to reach someone on the outside and send for help.//

I don't know if I want to keep the title of the fic as is or change it. Gah. Will decide when I have finished reworking it.

2003-01-09T20:05:00.000-05:00

My goal is to finish up Awakenings within the next week (yeah, like that's going to happen) and start reworking Finding Her Roots. I'm so dissatisfied with it that I feel like I can't continue it until I fix it. There are various scenes I want to rearrange and some things I want to cut out altogether. I think I'm also going to combine chapters so that there are fewer longer chapters instead of so many short ones. Hmm, this is sounding like it's going to be a lot of work. Oh well. ^^;;;

Hopefully, after the revision, I'll be able to finish the story. Then, I can finally allow myself to work on something other than Esca. Yay. Not that I don't love Esca. *glomps Van*

The thing I like most about Escaflowe is the little details in the series. I've seen it about a gazillion times (ok, a gazillion is an exaggeration...but I probably have seen the entire series at least ten times or so...and some episodes more than that...yeah, I'm a loser, lol). And yet, each time I watch it I pick up on things that I never picked up on before. I love that. Also, there are many unresolved things which makes it great material for fanfiction. Don't get me wrong, I think the ending was perfect. It's just that there are so many characters to write about, so much to expand on. So many possiblities. I'm on a roll here, lol.

2002-12-18T19:44:00.000-05:00

Thought I'd join the bandwagon. Quiz stolen from Jae. *ahem*

1. The first story I EVER posted/read was: (if you don't remember, describe story)
Hmm, I think the first one I ever posted (but not the first one I wrote) was Little Brother on the FY fanfiction mailing list. I'm not too sure what the first fanfic I ever read was, but I know it was Fushigi Yuugi.

2. The fandom for that was... (if you're too ashamed to admit it, lie!)
Fushigi Yuugi, no da! ^^;;;

3. And this was actually back in...
Around November 2000 is when I started reading fanfiction. I started writing fanfics in late Dec of that same year.

4. My favorite genre to write is:
Somehow I usually end up writing romance, even though I don't write it that well. I think I'm best at drama....but oh well.

5. My favorite genre to read is:
Hmmm, usually some sort of romance, waffy or angsty. Really I'm not that particular; if the writing is good enough I'll be hooked.

6. My TOP FIVE or VERY favorite fan-author(s) is/are:
There are so many authors that I like for different reasons so I think it would be unfair for me to list any of them unless I listed ALL of them. XD

7. My favorite published-author(s) is/are:
The list is long and in no particular order.
Anne Rice, Anne McCaffrey, Lois Duncan, David Eddings, Edgar Allen Poe, Amy Tan, Patricia C. Wrede, Laurell K. Hamilton, Oscar Wilde, Tom Robbins, Julie Garwood, Lynn Kurland, Jane Austen, Judith Merkle Riley, Frances Hodgson Burnett.

8. I can often be found haunting...
The internet or the nearest shopping mall and or movie theater...if I'm not working of course. ^_^

9. My current passion is:
Reading good fanfiction, whatever it may be. Right now, usually Esca or Fruits Basket.

10. A fandom I kind of miss, and still have a few unexorcised ghosts for is:
Definately CCS. I haven't really given up on CCS, it's more like I've taken a long break to exorcise my Esca ghosts...then it'll be back to CCS.

11. My strangest, most unexpected fandom turn was:
Probably this latest Esca binge I've been on. Don't really know where it came from.

12. Something I wish I could write for, but never did/never will was:
Rurouni Kenshin. I love Kenshin...but I don't think I could write something that hasn't been done before.

13. I'm happily (or unhappily) anticipating being ambushed at some point by:
Fruits Basket. I know at somepoint a fic bunny will attack me and I will have no other choice. ^_^

14. A secret fandom urge I've never confessed is:
I want to write the Mother Of All FY fics. I really want to write about the origin of the book; how it came to be written and why.

15. I am most proud of (reading/writing/being involved with) this particular fandom aspect:
The only fandom that I got heavily involved in was CCS; and I'm glad I was so involved because of the friends I've made.

About fandom...I was into anime a long time before I discovered fandom. I was pretty much clueless until I started searching for sites on the net and ran across fanfiction. At first I was reluctant to read fanfics, because many of them differed from the original series so much. Then, the more I came across them, the more curious I became. I finally broke down and read a story, and liked it so much I immediately became obsessed. I've been hanging around various fandoms ever since.

2002-11-29T21:37:00.000-05:00

Ah, too tired to fic. Too tired to move. ^_^;;;

I'm going to try and finish the fourth chapter of Awakenings this weekend. There are just a few things I have to iron out. I'm trying to be really careful with this story; I don't want to lose focus of the main plot and run off on tangents....I have a really bad habit of doing that in multi-chapter stories.

I'm dissatisfied with 'Finding Her Roots'. Hell, I don't even like the title. There are times I want to just scrap the whole thing....but, even though it is a fairly bad fic, it does have it's moments. The problem seems to be that I'm not very good at going from point A to point B. Ok, usually I don't even have a point B in mind. So, about...I don't know, eight or so parts into the darn story I came up with a great idea and worked it into the fic. Plus, over the course of the chapters I kept adding more and more little side elements that really don't have much bearing on the main plot (is there even a main plot?). Someday I am just going to rip the thing apart and reassemble it into a nicer package, complete with plot. *sigh*

Oh, and by the way Sakura, I did leave Kaho directionally impaired on purpose. XD I think it's one of the cute things about her. That story has to be one of the few that I'm really proud of (despite it's being extremely short). Still, looking back over it I noticed a couple little things that I should probably fix. Oh well. ^^;;; Anyway, thanks for reading.

2002-11-22T16:10:00.000-05:00

No ficcage, but gift art for eves. Why? Because I felt like it. :P

Done in pencil and edited slightly in photoshop. I really like the autocontrast feature. It does wonders with pencil sketches. XD

I also submitted it to a contest that merrow is running. Ah, well. bleh. ^_^

2002-11-18T00:00:00.000-05:00

Woo-hoo, I finally finished part three of Awakenings. Gah. I don't know why it takes me so long to write sometimes. I guess I just have to be in the mood to write. Oh, well.

Also, I discovered the perfect song to make a Furuba anime music video to. Muhahahaha. Now all I have to do is get my hardware to work properly. ^_^;;;;

2002-11-14T11:59:00.000-05:00

I was going through old fic snippets this morning and came across my abandoned Touya/Tomoyo piece. I thought I'd post a couple snippets here and see what everyone thinks.

snippet one:

Touya lay in bed, Yukito breathing softly beside him. He was just about to drift off when the sound of Yukito’s voice startled him.
“To-ya, I think Tomoyo is lonely.”
“Hmm? What makes you think that, Yuki?” he mumbled in a sleepy voice.
Yukito turned on his side, facing Touya. “I don’t know, just a feeling I guess. Her eyes looked sad, don’t you think?”
Touya thought back to dinner earlier. Tomoyo had never been very expressive about things, she was very much like himself in that way. Well, except about his sister. But even then...it seemed as if she had always been holding something back. Maybe he had never noticed before, but Tomoyo had always seemed a bit lonely. Even when Sakura was around.
“To-ya?” The sound of Yuki’s voice brought him back to reality.
“Huh?”
Yuki studied him for a moment and then cracked a wild smile and let out a small chuckle. He leaned over and gave Touya a peck on the cheek.
“What was that for?”
“You’re cute when you’re out of it.”
Touya grinned. “Isn’t that my line?”
Yuki chuckled again. “It was nice having her around, don’t you think? Especially with Sakura gone off to Hong Kong.”
“You don’t give up, do you?” Yukito shook his head, his bangs falling across his eyes. Touya reached up and brushed them away from his face. “Good thing I accepted Daidouji’s invite to see her sing next week then.”

snippet two:

She had arrived shortly after one o clock on Sunday afternoon.
“You cut Sakura’s hair once, if I remember correctly.”
“Yes…” He wasn’t quite sure where she was headed.
“Will you cut mine, Tsukishiro?”
“Oh, I don’t think I could. Your hair is so beautiful. I don’t think I could live with myself if I were to mess it up.”
She gave him a gentle smile. “I don’t think you’ll mess up. Besides, I want it short. Very short,” she demonstrated by gripping her hair at the length she wanted it.
“That’s barely past your chin…” he said hesitantly.
She giggled. “Don’t be so shocked. I think it’s about time I made some changes. Please Tsukishiro. It would mean a lot to me if you would do this for me.”
He smiled back at her. “Alright, then.”
***
“You like him, don’t you?” She could see him blushing faintly in the mirror’s reflection. Before she could reply, Yukito assured her. “It’s ok. You don’t have to say anything. I saw how you were watching him the other night at dinner.”
She wasn’t sure she was entirely comfortable with this conversation, but she answered him anyway. “He reminds me of Sakura. On the outside they don’t appear to be anything alike, but…inside they are very much the same.”
Yukito smiled at her insight and let out a small chuckle. “You’re right, I think.”
Tomoyo watched as the dark tresses fell to the floor. There was quite a pile of them now. For a second she wondered if she would be sorry later for having made such a drastic change. Then she remembered that she wasn’t one to give into regrets.
“Do you mind, Tsukishiro?”
She didn’t have to say what she was asking. He knew. Snip. Another lock fell gracefully to the floor.
“No. He was watching you also, you know.”
She looked at her shorn locks littering the the floor around her feet. She glanced up into the mirror and almost didn’t recognize herself. Now that her hair was shorter, the curl was more evident. She ran her hand through the dark curls watching as they bounced back to rest beside her pale skin. She took a deep breath, looked into her eyes in the mirror, and smiled.
“Thank you, Tsukishiro,” she said softly.

2002-11-14T01:11:00.000-05:00

Well, I didn't get much ficcing done today, but I think it was because I was in the mood to draw instead. This sketch is of Celena. I tried to make her look sort of Dilandu-ish but I'm not quite sure if she even looks much Celena-ish. Oh well. ^_^;;;

2002-11-12T21:44:00.000-05:00

I'm going to work on 'Awakenings' tomorrow. My goal is to finish part three so that I can move on to part four. That sounds logical enough. The only problem is that the way I write I never know where I'm going to end up. I tend to be very unorganized. I jump from point to point with little or no coherency and only piece things together later like a puzzle, carefully smoothing the top so that the little cracks don't show through as much.

When I originally started writing 'Awakenings' I had ideas for a few scenes. I wrote them up and before I knew it I had written eight pages of fic in one night. Eight pages of jumbled scenes with huge gaps in between which needed to be filled in before the whole thing could be smoothed over and polished, not to perfection but at least to my satisfaction. Eight pages in one night is a lot for me. I tend to write short chapters when I write fics with more than one part, usually only four or five pages each. Of course, I meant to write a one-shot, but in the end I think this story is going to be about five chapters long, each about six or so pages. I wanted to try improve my writing a little bit; add more details and try to focus a little less on the dialogue. I think that's what's causing my chapters to bloat a bit.

'Awakenings' is a fun fic for me because I get to write about Celena. I don't believe that she would have turned out at all how I've written her, but that's part of the enjoyment I get out of writing it. I've read some very good Celena fics and every single one has portrayed her character in a different way. So, in my own fic (which fits into the escaverse of my other esca fics) I wanted also to try and portray her in an original way. Or, maybe it's just the way that I would like to see her. ^_^

Well, at least all this talk of writing has geared me up to get some ficcing done tomorrow. Yay.

2002-11-09T22:53:00.000-05:00

Argh. I had to redo the whole blog cuz I'm an idiot. ^_^;;;

Ok, so this is my attempt at a layout. Yeah, it's pretty simple but I guess it works. I'll try to actually blog about fics later when I have time.